i realised the answer to an earlier question, im trying to connect to others that can relate to me.
I have lots of distress over suffering around me and it gets to where i spend all my time searching for how i can help.
The urge to connect to others on the path is overwhelming sometimes because that's where i need to serve, but it is usually so hard to get around pride, hard to know what to say, where to start.
I want to serve.
i've entered the stream. i am the reflection of everyone i have ever met.
I see the fields are ready, i want to help in the harvest.
i've recently learned that where i am is considered rare, but i've searched and i don't see it as true.
i've known many like me, who if they had a chance, they would have annulled themselves before the creator.
it's the treasure in the field, christ was making a guarantee that there is a treasure that when it is found, one WILL sell all they own to buy the field.
I see myself in others, crying out for the truth, begging to me to explain that the truth is within.
after awakening, i diverted much of my personal energy to developing compassion. changing my sorrow to be for the suffering of others for example, but now it has grown much faster than i expected.
this is the direction i must go. i start here, in asking your advice on how else i can serve the most good.
i don't like asking this publicly because it seems like it may be off putting, but fear does not produce life.