Your Being cannot be disunited from your Innermost, since they are the same one. However, all of us who have the ego alive are separated from our Innermost Being. That is why we need to eliminate the ego.
Sexual magic is for creating the solar bodies, and then later for eliminating the depths of the ego.
Do not concern yourself with whether one is a "bodhisattva" or not — only the ego cares about that. No matter what level one may have achieved in the past, that is past and lost. Deal with what you are today, and work hard to improve yourself. Do not worry about "time," or "how long it takes." No matter how long it takes, you still have to do it!
“Nothing is easier than self-deceit. For what each man wishes, that he also believes.” —Demosthenes
"Do not worry; cultivate the habit of being happy." —Samael Aun Weor